Friday, January 13, 2017

Hello 2017

Hi everyone!

It's been a very little while since my last post.
Happy belated New Year 2017!
May we can achieve what we want to achieve more better than the previous. May God's blessing always be with us. Amin.

So, to kick off this year I have a 1 month field-work office to complete in this January. It is located at a local health office in a rural district northern side of my city. Because of the 110 km distance, I decided to rent a room and stay there from Monday-Friday and go back home on weekend. 2 weeks done, 2 weeks more to go!

Well, things run well and quiet fun there. It was a bit tough at the beginning, as usual when you enter a new environment but things get better by time and you get yourself used to it.

This is a whole new experience for me to tune in to a government organization. I mean, yaa, witnessing how civil servants work and how complicated the bureaucracy is.. it's got me like... Oh My God, please let me work in something I really love and capable of that can live not only my self but also my family and many people, a work without any complicated bureaucracy that is fulfilled with passionate and hardworker people.

That thing doesn't seem exist unless you really push yourself to build your own company, in whichever field. So, the conclusion is, it is right that government is now vigorously promoting entrepreneurship to the young generation. But I personally think, before the entrepreneurship lesson, all younger people need to master is a certain skills so that with their skillful hands, they're going to be able to develop their skills into business that can live their lives and the life of many, without relying on the government.


Monday, December 5, 2016

A Sad Afternoon

So this afternoon I witnessed a cat being hit and run by a car. It happened so fast just right in front of my eyes. A pick-up car ran so fastly when a cat carefully crossed the road. And it happened in second.

Ban mobilnya menggilas si kucing malang, gak tau juga ntah ekor atau badan bagian belakang, tapi bulu-bulu kucingnya jadi tercerabut gitu. Kucingnya masih hidup, terus jalan tersuruk-suruk gitu ke taman pembatas jalan. Gw liat itu mobil sempat memelan sedikit, trus kabur. Gw refleks berhenti dan nepiin motor lalu gw turun ngeliat si kucing malang. Gw aslinya penakut, dengan hati-hati gw deketin si kucing, gw elus-elus badannya, mau gw balik tapi takut. Dia kayak mengeong kesakitan gitu, lidahnya bergetar, bukan karena haus tapi karena kesakitan. Gw kan punya kucing dua, jadi gw tau itu lagi kesakitan bgt. Akhirnya gw balik badannya, alhamdulillah ga ada darahnya. Gak ada luka lah, tapi sedikit bagian tubuhnya jadi botak gara-gara bulunya tercerabut gitu. Bulu-bulunya jg banyak berserakan di sekitar tempat dia tiduran sekarang. Trus gw liat ekornya, eh dari lubang kotoran kyk ada bercak darah gitu... duhhhh gusti...

Trus dia coba jalan, ehh ternyata dia gak bisa jalan. Dua kaki belakangnya gak bisa dibawa jalan, jadinya dia ngesot sambil nyeret dua kaki belakangnya. Kayaknya tadi ban mobilnya ngegilas bagian belakang badannya, soalnya ada bunyi kayak mobil ngegilas batu atau polisi tidur gitu. Ya Allah.... gw mau nangis rasanyaa....

Trus gw belai-belai terus, dianya tetep mengeong dengan nada meringis gitu. Lidahnya masih bergetar-getar. Gw mau kasih minum, gw lupa gw gak bawa botol minum.. duh... biasanya kan gw selalu bawa botol minum ke mana-mana.. duhhhh

Apa yg harus gw lakukan... orang-orang ga ada yg peduli. Ada bapak-bapak yg baru parkir di seberang jalan malah ngomong, udah.. biarin aja..

Dasar gak punya perasaan tu bapak.

Gw kepikiran buat bawa pulang aja tapi... apa ini kucing ada yg punya atau ngerasa punya? Soalnya dia cukup gede dan bulunya lumayan bagus, warna cokelat kekuningan gitu.

Duh.... gimana nihhhh....

Akhirnya gw putusin buat puter balik pake motor ke jalan seberang arah pulang ke rumah, kalo emang gak ada yg peduli gw bawa pulang aja si kucing gw masukin kantong kresek gw abis beli baju tadi.

Pas sampe di seberang jalan, gw cari-cari si kucing kok gak ada... gw berhentiin motor gw cari sepanjang taman pembatas jalan kok gak ada tanda-tandanya. Kalo dia gak bisa jalan kan ga mungkin bisa pergi dengan cepat. Gw sisir lagi sepanjang jalan pake pandangan, gak ketemu. Beberapa bapak-bapak mulai mendekat, dan mobil-mobil mulai rame berseliweran nglakson gw.

Dengan berat hati gw pergi meninggalkan TKP.

Dan sepanjang hari tadi gw lemes aja gitu bawaannya, kebayang sama itu kucing..

Kalo kamu masih hidup, semoga kamu sehat-sehat ya dan bisa jalan lagi.

Buat driver mobil pick yp putih yang gak bertanggung jawab... ahh... speechless gw...

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Super Weird but Sweet Dream

So yesterday was the birthday of my sweet jaan Shah Rukh Khan.

As usual, I wish my jaan on both Twitter and Instagram. If last year I got a reply from SRK's twitter (which was handled by admin or auto-reply due to the promotion of the movie FAN), this year I got a very weird surprise.

Exactly last night, I had a super nice dream in which... I met SHAH RUKH KHAN in person!

I couldn't remember if I ever had the dream of meeting SRK before, but this time it felt so nice and real and a bit emotional.

So it started from a spacious living room in a super luxurious house, there was me and some random people-who all looked tall and elegant like celebrities-having a party kind of event. The two faces I recognized were the stunning Raline Shah and the gorgeous Shah Rukh Khan! (super random right?!)

Suddenly a lady with a veil and sunglasses came in and joined us. When she opened her glasses, we all chocked up realizing that she is Rani Mukerji! Everyone seemed soo happy, even me and some people were a bit teary meeting her (bcoz we all know that Rani Mukerji has always been a very private person).

And then, it's the time for documenting session. We all were moving towards each other to strike pose in front of camera, with Rani Mukerji (whom everyone would like to be close with, including me) in the center. I barely remembered, but I am pretty sure that SRK was somewhere on my left side.

After group photo session's done, everybody was taking personal photo with each other alternately. For me, I took my first photo with SRK. Before taking photo, I wished him Happy Birthday and told how much I adore and really love him OMGGG and he smiled soo generously and looked super happy too. While the photographer was about to click our picture...

Trrit... Trrit.. Trriiit... Trriiirtt...


My mobile alarm's ringing!

4 AM in the morning.

I found myself lying in my bed!


Felt soo sad, the picture with SRK was almost clicked!!!


It was a dream.

But a super sweet one and it felt sooo freaking real!


I only pray to Allah that it will become true one day. Amin. That's one of my bucket lists.

Btw, it feels just like tomorrow when my Happy Birthday tweet got a reply by Shah Rukh Khan last year. How time flies, right?

Happy 51 Birthday my hero, my jaan Shah Rukh Khan.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Turning 25

I am turning 25 today. Alhamdulillah. All praise to Allah for all the beautiful blessings in life especially for the health, good food, good shelter to live, loving family and friends and precious chance for me to live my life a year more. Hopefully I can always improve my life each and everyday towards a better way. Amin. 

As usual... Birthday picture of the birthday girl

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Missing Doraemon

Hi everyone.

It's 3.50 AM in the morning and I just finished my powerpoint presentation for today's class. Hopefully it's running well.

It's Sunday today and to be honest I do not like having class in Sunday bcoz it makes me have to skip 2 activities I always look forward to every Sunday morning; jogging/working out and watching Doraemon.

Been missing my Doraemon in the past few weeks, hopefully next Sunday I will be able to meet my Doraemon.

Have a nice Sunday everyone!

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Just A Sorrow of A Night

Hi all
Hope you're doing well, but unfortunately I feel quiet sad now.
11.29 PM now and still couldn't sleep, something very unusual for an early riser like me.

You know, as a woman, a single woman to be more precise, life gets hard as you reach the phase of adulthood. And today I just experienced one of the worst things that promotes my sleep disturbance tonight. Hopefully it'll last just for tonight, okay.

Well, I have normally never felt any kind of jealousy, envy or a chronic level of galau when it comes to people asking me (mostly on a wedding or family event) about: "Ayye sweety, so...  when is your turn?" , "Oo Siti, we cannot wait to see yours next" , "Is there any candidate yet? I know someone that might be matching to you" , bla bla, etc.

Sometime I think I might be a heartless woman who has never been offended by all those rhetorical questions or those kind of jokes. I don't know, after experiencing a major fracture hepatic last year, maybe yeah.. I become a heartless living creature.

Well, so.. some guys come and go, just like that. Every relative introduced me to a nice guy, exchanged our numbers, then we had a little texting, and then BUM! All gone with the wind. And the cycle runs the exact that way with some guys. Ended up just like that. Well, I--honestly consciously and sincerely--AM totally fine with all that. Really. No galau-galau or anything. I swear. My parents were... okay, mom was a bit exciting with some but she's just turned out okay too. No probs. While my dad was really cool about it. He has never interfered me when it comes to that kind of thingy.

But today.. I feel extremely mentally died. Here is the short version of the story:

One of my relatives tried to "match-making" me with a guy. He comes from a not-so-far relative of the matchmaker. The mobile number exchanged, that guy started SMS me few days ago, then we talked in mobile for a good 1,5 hours. He sound nice. Okay. He has already seen my pix sent by a relative, while I have never seen him nor his picture. When asked, he said that his android mobile was broken that he couldn't send any pict yet. Okay. No probs.

There hasn't been any conversation nor a single SMS between us for a few days after that phone-call up to this day. Okay. Well, I can say that I was busy to attend my first classes in college on the usual weekend schedule. Little did I thought about that guy, he might be busy too. FYI, he runs a shop by himself, a.k.a an entrepreneur. Okay. Having never seen a single pict of him just made me feel all flat.

So, far before that guy sent me the first SMS, the matchmaker already warned me to say this and that, not to say this and that, to be warm and friendly, in conclusion: be a nice girl. Okay.

After the first day of SMS-ing, the matchmaker again warned me to be more warmer, do not late to reply the SMS. Okay.

On the evening after the first 1,5 hour mobile conversation, the matchmaker sound soo extremely excited. Okay. That's a good thing.

During the few hiatus days of the absence of SMS and mobile call, the matchmaker kept asking me, how's it going on? What? He didn't SMS you? No call? So you send a SMS first, lah. Just pretend to text, "Assalamualaikum abang, how are you today? How's the shop?" and all possible types of cheesy text.

I remained still for a few days, not sending anything at all. I don't know, I might be shy but I just don't feel comfortable to do that. Additionally, I didn't know how he looks so what to expect? And the most terrible part is, the matchmaker has also never seen that guy too! Duh! So what is the point of all this?

Well, okay, it is rumored, based on the info the matchmaker got from the guy's parents, that he is a nice guy, has already owned his own shop, just bought a car, basically in 10 words: a settled young entrepreneur who is seeking for a wife. Okay.

This morning the matchmaker asked me again, how's it? I said, still nothing going on. In the investigating voice the matchmaker asked me, what was the last topic you both talked about? I replied, just normal kind of topic, family, activities and all that. It sound okay.

This afternoon the matchmaker asked me again for the second time of the day, the exact same question. Well, I think I am quiet patient by nature but this time I started feel irritated. I tried to reply the same thing with a nice tone, showing my respect to the matchmaker the way I respect my parents. So after talking this and that, the matchmaker then started to sound discredited me.

"There are only 1/3 male population in this earth now, thus we need to select a good one too. So please lah, you start SMS him. What is the big deal? No need to shy about sending 1 hi/hello SMS. The man side will also be happy if you're becoming a warm girl too. If you want something you need to give your effort to get it too. Do something about it. I know the place where that guy lives. You can ask, assalamualaikum, tok.. tok.. tok... like knocking door, asking about food there. Make some jokes about this and that. But don't ask sensitive questions like, how many shops do you own? Do not do that! Ask more about religious thingy, bla, bla"

I calmly tried to reply, "My respectful matchmaker, let it goes naturally. It is all about the feeling. Well, I have never seen any of his pix neither have you. So I didn't want to start any of that flirting thingy coz I don't know how he looks. Look doesn't really matter for me but doesn't mean that's not important too. Meanwhile I felt a bit shy too"

"Well if you kept your shy attitude then it's up to you. You know that it's not easy to find a nice man to be a husband nowadays? You have studied in UI for that long, then why can't you get a nice one in the pool of intelligent, excellent men that time? Then comes A, B, C, D, the list goes on.. then all just ended up like that? Look at these your girl cousins, you want to get married at the emergency age like them (27-29)? Look at that aunty, 40+ already but she's so selfish, no wonder she is still single until now! So after few hiatus days, make your first move now. Go SMS him!"

My breath choked. I tried to respond calmly till the conversation ended. I grabbed my mobile texting SMS to that guy while... few drops of tears coming down my face. My hands trembled. SMS sent. I started sobbing, crying like a crazy. My whole body shaked. I felt like my heart just got hit so hard that it fallen down to the floor. I felt like all things I've done and I've been progressing have gone to waste coz the only thing matters now is to get married. Married. Married. Married. Everything else is useless. My education, my degree, is all useless. I cried with chocked breath for a good 1 hour I guess. My eyes got swollen, my face turned red. I felt so ugly inside out.

After a few hours, all tears shed, I felt little light.
My parents came and I told them everything. I felt much lighter knowing that my parents are all supportive of my on-going education, to finish what I have started first before committing to anything else.

For the matchmaker, thank you so much for the kind-hearted attention to introduce me to a guy. I really appreciate that, deep from my heart.

But as for what's been happening from the past few days: all the interrogation kind of questions and the dictate of scripted words to say to that guy that really contradicts to my nature and has made me feel beyond bad about my self, I think it's time to dismiss this matchmaking. The decision is final on my behalf.